Hometown

Coming back to Jakarta is tough. I knew how hard living in this big city, not to mention that I came back live with my family. It’s my next challenge.

The second week I returned back home, my grandma was admitted to the hospital and need to get to the ICCU.

The fourth week, my uncle got COVID-19 and it's a pretty serious situation. And yesterday, he passed away because there’s a complication in his lungs.

But the biggest problem is I need to rebalance my ‘home’ and ‘family’ situation. For years, we have lived in a toxic environment, full of negative energy and dark spirits. But, me, this girl who just lived in Bali for her spiritual retreat, has this big responsibility to solve that problem.

Why me? I always asked. Especially every time I faced hardship.

And I have to keep reminding myself that God trusts me enough to be able to handle this situation. And this is my faith, my destiny, which I need to embrace this situation.

It definitely won't be easy. But that's what makes me stronger.